sonnet of gratified

this poem was awfully created by me towards a friend that i will never ever forget for now on. the idea was gathered last night after some incident. happy reading and translating. :)

dearest friend
on the day i was in the dusk
with worst of thought
full with heartbreaking sensation
in this endless darkness
came by an exquisite little glow
move around this almost deceased
playing and dancing beautifully
incessantly endeavor for a sincerest smile

as this light cease the dance
it happen that the moon fade
by the clouds of sorrow
and it glow dimly
until then i start to motion
as my head tilt up
the light shrink it;s glow

what is happening?
please don't leave me alone
in this nightmare

my hand start to touch the light
the light proliferate hasty and widely
winning every space of the dark sight
and no more gloomy contiguous

why, you made me stood up
again and stunning
with such amazing panorama
with blooming seeds of freshness
with enchanting sky of hopes
with chirping wings of happiness
with breezing wind of change
and the ocean bravely hit the land
and completely dazzling my very me

oh dear, how did you do that?
i can now joy the scenery
i can now sing and dance freely
i can now write creatively
i can now love this feeling
i can now smile blissfully
and that shows i am happy

oh dear, you are the light i am talking to
you are the light i touch to
you are the one who grant me the vivacity
to live the fullest

oh dear, i owe you my life
and i shall repay you with my life
and i can't halt the deem of every single of you

the sonnet i jot at this moment
is the thank for your kindness
is the thank for your sincerest
is the thank for your existent
is for you

oh dear, i love you
i certainly love you my dearest friend

fate of the game

haha. this one was created during my journey back to PJ on 12th May 09. got two oh! :D

love, we've been through so far

in this quest of the heart

we barely made it through

we passed the main gate

we already sneaked in to forbidden gate

will you keep on going

to the forbidden house

or we just walk out of this untouched land

because the lord smell us

because the darth smell us

or we remain there

quietly without notice

the choices aren't fake

yet this quest isn't fate

this is the destiny to be chosen

a step foward

will never be backward

lets face it

i cant love the fullest

haha. this one was created during my journey back to PJ on 12th May 09. got two oh! :D

it have been moons since we tied together

yet, none of your red hub are mine

though you're tlling me yours are mine

still, none made me think those of yours mine

boy i hate this feel

to give up on half way done

to leave what was hardly gained

cause red hub of mine doesn't glow for glory

am i satisfy?

or just terrify?

shouly i apply?

or simply deny?

an undecidable answer

for this unsettle sensation

girl i can't love the fullest

girl i can't make the world

wether we're late in linking hubs

or just my deem that fuck up

what will you do my love?

will you cure my thought?

or just walk away from this mess?

now is the que call

for this problematic quest

on you on me

face it or leave it

this is a game we play

the game of fate

soulful thought

09/05/04 - i went through some serious thinking. as i finished my thought, i came up to note those thought by poem. so, this was the result.

to my dear sayang.
i may sounded funny,
i may sounded crazy,
i may sounded nasty,
i may sounded naughty,
but for you, i wont ever make you my toy or whatsoever.

my dear sayang.
i do make you smile,
i do make you sad,
i do even make you cry,
but hey, whatever it is, it will never screw your life up.

my dear sayang.
i may be not the romantic one,
i may be not the charming one,
i may be not the sweetest one,
by for you, my heart will always strive those for you.

to my dear sayang,
this is what i promise myself to you.

i want you by your heart
i leave you by your side
i love you by my life

hence, i will never give up to live for you. till the end. of time.